Until It Bleeds

This house got so big on the day that you left
And even bigger when I knew that you weren’t coming back
Sometimes I feel like I’m barely alive
My eyes wake at noon and my head wakes at five
I’ve been sleeping in my clothes ever since you’ve been gone
With the phone on my chest and I’m sorry on my tongue
I don’t turn on the lights, I don’t watch T. V
Just lay there staring at the ceiling, waiting on sleep
You told me not to call
Anymore on the telephone
But you know how well enough
Hates being left alone
Not much to do on nights like these
Except pick at the past
Until it bleeds
I put a hole in my wall on the day that you left
Just stood there watching blood falling from my fingertips
I still don’t know what I thought it might do
A hole in the wall don’t do nothing but stare back at a fool
I dialed your number and I let it ring
Could hear you rolling your eyes when you realized it was me
I told you that I love you and that I would always
I would’ve asked if you loved me too but I was scared of what you’d say