Rookie

I never thought this could be me
I guess you never do until it"s happening to you
Like all the fun turns into shame
And all the «could have beens"rearrange
So little time, so many crimes
Guilt like a chain chokes my will away
Redemption never seemed so cruel
And all my gods never seemed so weak
Wake up, engage, now derailed and enraged
It used to be so easy
Get up, I"m game, now sick and I"m tame
Counting cost with lost
Where is the hope they gave?
Don"t think that I can"t hear you laugh
I used to be a lot like you
But now I"m only me I used to be a lot like you
But now I"m only me, I"m only me
«Drinks to pills to shots,
Fun turns into shock
A habit and a pawn
For every hand goes round
The pain gets so damned loud
the hammer hits.»
.and I"m down and I"m down and I"m down and I"m down and
Trust no one. Hey, why should I?
They gave me this poison dressed like life Cheated, smacked up and diseased
Cry to sleep and fight to eat
I used to be a pro at this
Now I"ve broken my own wrist
Rotten teeth and life unsung
You"ll forget me when I"m gone
Wake up, engage,
now derailed and enraged
It used to be so easy
Get up, I"m game, now sick and I"m tame
Counting cost with lost
I used to be a lot like you
But now I"m only me I used to be a lot like you
But now I"m only me, I"m only me