Dinner

Always on your own
Don’t consider trying
Tried you on the phone
But you considered lying
Never had a doubt I’m losing
So I’m tidying my room
Trying to be careful
Drinking in the afternoon and lighting up whilst tearful
Hoping that you’re still unhappy
I’ll do everything I can
To make sure that you are never happy
Breaking out of this cocoon and clawing at the camera
Seeing you would be too soon
I’m stupid if I want more
Hoping that you die unhappy
I’ll do anything I can
To make sure that you are never happy
Never had a doubt I’m losing
So unsure of every question in the dark
Trying hard not to go with anything you gave me
I’m so scared and down on friends
So please pretend there is no end
Trying not to be a victim in your game
I know your dirty ways
I know you feel the same
It kills me deep inside
I hope you cry when you see what you have inside
Never had a doubt I’m losing
I’ll do anything I can
To make sure that you are never happy