Ugly

I’ve got some «friends» You can have them
I grew up and they haven’t so it’s best to just throw them away
I’ve got some girls you can have them
I grew up and kicked the habit, It justified moving away
I would hide indoors lonely, a victim of leeching friends
(I'm not lonely) (I let you in)
I have slowly changed and feel safe in my new ugly skin
(I love my new ugly skin)
Peel back my seams
Empty vessel, vacant skin
Elect to feel so vain
A big black hole to suck you in
Then pushes you away
To disbelief of what took place
Imperfect and afraid
You noticed me
Thank god for you
What would we do without your
Backhanded compliments
Reminded I’m a novice
Incase I forget that you are perfect in every possible way
And when I’m gone they’ll forget my
Name and they will call me by my own fathers name
Drunken I will wreck myself Into everyone and
Peel back my scabs
They were so close to
Healing now they’re back
And I remember how I
Felt on that first day
When he was born and took away
And I loved you still
Like a child
(bleeding you)
Like a mother
(bleeding you dry)
It’s god damn my own fault that I am used to this