Scared

Please don’t ask me how I am, it’s been a while since I felt fine
Should probably change all of these old repeating patterns of my mind
Long nights, bad dreams
Wake up, clenched teeth
I’m so weary now
And I’m scared to let go
Scared of the unknown
And feeling all alone
I found comfort in this lonely state of all-consuming dark
I drink my poison like I’m chosing to keep breaking my own heart
Tight chest, I scream
Trouble breathing
God I’m weary now
And I’m scared to let go
Scared of the unknown
And feeling all alone
Every night I wake up shaking
I don’t even know why I’m this scared
Try to keep myself from breaking
But my thoughts are racing
I’m so scared
I’m scared to let go
Scared of the unknown
And feeling all alone