True Strengths

The pain creeps in every day
And you’re trying your best not to feel this way
Some days up and some days down
Swimming in misery, you’re starting to drown
Looking for answers to impossible questions
Searching in your mind for new dimensions
Feeling so alone and you’ve been thinking
«I'm better off dead than alone here, sinking!»
Searching for the light and looking inside
To find out where your true strengths hide
Going on and on this pain has got to cease
Living like an animal full of disease
Further inspection now you’re looking inside
To find out where your true strengths hide
You’re looking around for some higher power
To get you through this darkest hour
All those years of pain are now coming through
Those cracks in your mind are nothing new to you
You’re starting to slip to a whole new level
The metal of a gun pressed against your temple
One in the chamber, maybe one in your head
You can pull the trigger, and your mind’ll turn red
What about the things that you never did?
Getting straight, get a life, maybe having kids?
Is a moment’s pleasure really worth the cost
Of looking back on your life and all the things you lost?
Don’t know my future, with my past behind
I’m now reborn, new hopes to find
Free from restraints that held me down
The cycle of hate that comes around