Against the Grain

Just when you think you know what the problem is
Your inner monologue is starting to show
You don’t notice
Run out of alibis, own up to it
But know you can’t
Need a change of plans
You fall to pieces, now you know
Lately I been stumblin'
Lately I been fumblin'
Falling into pieces, someone pick me up I’m crumblin'
It’s time I’m ownin' up to it, excuses they’ve been doublin'
Thought they understood me, maybe I’ve been mumblin'
Praying for a miracle, hoping it’ll come true
Talking to the mirror cuz there’s no one else to run to
Pointing all my fingers at everybody but you
Got me in some heat, Ctrl-Z couldn’t undo
Yeah, I said I’ll get some help but I’m empty in my promise
Lying to myself and pretendin' to be honest
Lately, I been lazy wastin' energy on nonsense
Eventually, comfort is the enemy of progress
Hit rock bottom with my problems, I can taste the shame
I know everybody’s got em but it ain’t the same
See no one else is stoppin' you to make a change
You need to be held responsible and take the blame
But it seems like it’s followin' me
Everywhere I go they have a problem with me
It took a little while, now I finally see
They don’t have the problem
The problem is me
Just when you think you know what the problem is
Your inner monologue is starting to show
You don’t notice
Run out of alibis, own up to it
But know you can’t
Need a change of plans
You fall to pieces, now you know
I became a prisoner livin' in my own jail
Mind keeps on racing but my pace is like a slow snail
Snow, hail, sleet, rain
Even through the cold spells
Told myself I’d shine thru
I knew that I won’t fail
Backstage in my room
Staring at the wall now
Beat myself up had enough of this assault now
Did my interviews
I’m viewin' all my faults
Hell, I opened up the wounds
I’m pourin' in the salt ow
Runnin' from my problems
Nothings keepin' me sane
I kept on runnin', now I’m running outta people to blame
I been stubborn, gettin' stuck, drownin' deep in my ways
With my army behind, it’s how I’m leading the way
Crowds screamin' my name
I was screamin' inside
Lookin' deep in my eyes and see the demons inside
Devils playin' tug-a-war with the realest alive
Gotta go Against the Grain and put my feelin’s aside
It seems like it’s followin' me
Everywhere I go they have a problem with me
It took a little while, now I finally see
They don’t have the problem
The problem is me
Just when you think you know what the problem is
Your inner monologue is starting to show
You don’t notice
Run out of alibis, own up to it
But know you can’t
Need a change of plans
You fall to pieces, now you know