At the Bottom

Hold in my breath-not taking a step
The good church has closed its doors on me
God don’t like my dirty feet
Burnin' the lawn-everyone's gone
Ain’t no BBQ going on today
I drink my dinner in the shade
Days & days go by
Children laughin'
Still I don’t smile at all
Mary’s calling to me
«Can't you see what I see»
She would never let me down
It’s been a long time at the bottom
I spend a lot of time way down there
It’s been a long time at the bottom
I don’t know how I made it here
Been livin' a lie-my kisses are dry
I got No where else left to run
My love is blind deaf and dumb
Heaven can’t wait-to lock up the gate
Tell me that I never could be long
I had my chance but got it wrong
Mother Mary stay with me
Don’t let me die
You’re the only god part left of my trash
God knows I can’t change me
I’ve tried and tried
I never meant to make you cry