Petals

Powder pink petals on me
But I didn’t love them
I couldn’t see
I wanted to be brighter
Wanted my colors to shine
Insecurity was fire
So, I drenched myself in fertilizer
I longed to be a different kind of flower
Hated my stem and vines
(PREHOOK)
Wait!
Wish that I could be like them like them
All the other roses — so juicy and red
Wish that body wasn’t mine — not mine
I’m ripping out my petals one at a time
I always thought that things would be different if I was beautiful
Thought they would love me — If my jawline was tighter
If my stomach was made of stone
But now that I’ve ruined the colors that bloomed in
The leaves that my body made
Tell me
Do you love me now?
Ripped out all my petals for you
Do you love me now?
(VERSE TWO)
As my vines wither
I can see the grass was always greener under me
But now my shades are dimmer
Cause I never watered me
(BRIDGE)
Tell me, tell me, tell me do you love me?
Tell me, tell me, tell me do you love me?
Cause I don’t love myself
Cause I’m taught to hate myself
Wait!