Spiders

Is it all that you wanted?
Your hair blowing in the cold breeze
Secrets within the trees
That are not revealed to you
You’re frightened of your nature
Promises they escape you
What’s one more burden
On the back of this beast?
Didn’t you once crave it?
For the world to just stand still
For the noise to stop for a moment
And let you breathe?
You’re lighter than a feather
Lighter than «boots of Spanish leather»
That are pounding on the floorboards
Violently
I can’t take back all the hurt I’ve caused
Everything I love I have somehow lost
It’s 4 in the morning and the spiders are crawling
And my mind’s replaying pictures of all that I can’t undo
Love, I’m trying
But I can’t pull myself out when the darkness comes
Love, I’m trying
But I can’t pull myself out when the darkness comes
Is it a stain on your conscience?
Or is more like a mural
A memorial
For all those you’ve tried to be
Is it how you imagined it
In the great wide open?
All you’ve left unspoken
Now just hanging in the breeze
I can’t take back all the hurt I’ve caused
Everything I love I have somehow lost
It’s 4 in the morning and the spiders are crawling
And my mind’s replaying pictures of all that I can’t undo
Love, I’m trying
But I can’t pull myself out when the darkness comes
Love, I’m trying
But I can’t pull myself out when the darkness comes
Love, I’m trying
But I can’t pull myself out when the darkness comes
So soon
My old friend
I hope that I never see you
Again
Love, I’m trying
But I can’t pull myself out when the darkness comes
Love, I’m trying
But I can’t pull myself out when the darkness comes
Love, I’m trying
But I can’t pull myself out of this one
No I can’t pull myself out when the darkness comes