Blackout

What would you say if I threw it all away
The life that I lead could it be more surreal
Searching in my mind in the order to find some sense of reality
I fear that I am beginning to lose what’s left of my sanity
Awake again full of bloodstains on my hands
I wonder where I have been whose death I have foreseen
Breaking my will with the purpose to kill all shreds of humanity
To lose the control of body and soul is my main anxiety
Something’s coming over me my reality slowly slipping away
I just can’t remember but can’t seem to forget
Who I am blacked out again
Can’t longer say what is real and what is a dream
The demon is rising up from far deep down within
I have fallen into the depths of sin
Where the humanity ends and pain begins
Breaking free from this torment I must do
If I told you my secret, oh would you believe it’s true