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I feel the distance since this shit been different
Didn’t ask for the complications it’s just a given
Walked around the obstacles but you keeping pivot
Hard to view my perspective since we got different lenses
Hurts my heart that your present but I don’t feel your presence
Huh
Blurred reflections can’t ever mirror your true affection
My mental headed to new directions
Hard to please my surroundings cause they don’t get it
Second guess a lot cause I always seem to regret it
Can’t seem to understand why it’s harder to keep my sanity, when I’m alone
I know I’m gone but could pick up the phone
Never aiming for disappointment
My life choices are based off trusting my inner voices
Living for others and being judged for my latest spoken
Words of encouragement
Though it’s flourishing
A part of me ain’t fit with moment
I feel the lowest
(Iman Verse)
At times I ain’t mentally there
Y’all deserve the world but what I offer just isn’t fair
Constant apologies, close my eyes as i sit in prayer
No need for reminders on what I’m missing, trust I’m aware
Tired of politicking
With people who put in position
Giving me cold shoulders
And Hoping for ego lifting
Feels like no matter, where my attention is fully driven
Gears are shifted towards what was missing but it was hidden
Sacrificing time but always putting effort
Never read between the lines it was never that clever
Just been taking care of mines but there was always extra
Take a lot of pride in ties, i hope they never sever
Contemplated on going back to my ways before I was an artist
The more I achieve
The more they tarnish which makes me heartless
Motive was family and making sure I can cover expenses
The more I achieve
The more I see how they feel the distance