Runaway

What would this be?
If not constantly hollow and empty
What could this mean?
I've made peace with my inner enemy
Who am I now that the silence surrounds?
It's so loud, there's nothing to block out
I'm not proud of the emptiness following me everywhere I go
Lurking just beneath fragile surface
Itching to release, is it worth it?
Go back to the days, constant hurting
Tell me there's a way out of this
'Cause right now I'm just going through all of the motions
That's the only way that I know how to function
Spent so many years, fighting tears, and emotion
Finally figured out it's my only solution
And I can't win this war
It's been several years and I'm still locked out of the same damn door
Lurking just beneath fragile surface
Itching to release, is it worth it?
Go back to the days, constant hurting
Tell me there's a way out of this
'Cause right now I'm just going through all of the motions
That's the only way that I know how to function
Spent so many years, fighting tears, and emotion
Finally figured out it's my only solution
I run away
I run away
Lurking just beneath fragile surface
Itching to release, is it worth it?
Go back to the days; constant hurting
Tell me there's a way out of this
'Cause right now I'm just going through all of the motions
That's the only way that I know how to function
Spent so many years, fighting tears, and emotion
Finally figured out it's my only solution