Knight

I watched you deteriorate
In the hospital slowly
Slowly
You took your final breath
When no one was around you
Lonely
So how am I supposed to feel without you in my life
I can’t seem to find any words to make it
Or tears to fake it
Did I do my best to be there
Will I hate myself the same
When my mother is dead and gone
When my father passes on
Tell me who are you inside
Don’t ever say that I was wrong or that I don’t try
You better tell me I was justified
And prove to me you were the strongest man alive
I’m at a loss for words
I’ve been writing this so slowly
Slowly
Learn how to be a man
Don’t show your pain, just shut down
Let go
What followed your passing
I swear I’ll never forget
Your family at war for things to possess
In my memory there was nothing for you
No funeral
No memorial
And no love at all
Tell me who are you inside
Don’t ever say that I was wrong or that I don’t try
You better tell me I was justified
And prove to me you were the strongest man alive
Wherever you are now
I hope that I made you proud
I’ve never lost someone before
I don’t know how to feel
I hope I don’t sound selfish
You were the one with cancer
But your life meant so much more to so many
So much more to so many
Tell me who are you inside
Don’t ever say that I was wrong or that I don’t try
You better tell me I was justified
And prove to me you were the strongest man alive