Right the Wrongs

I wonder why I need to know?
I wonder why I need to know?
I wonder why?
To realize my dreams and right the wrongs I see
Things and what they seem
I wonder why through schemes
Cause I need to know
I wonder why some niggas wanna run, before they can crawl when the writing is
scrawled all over the wall
Can’t front I used to didn’t see it before
Or maybe I didn’t think I was who the message was for
Now I examine issues to the core
Kind of like I do metaphors
Think about friends I don’t see no more
Like my ex-best friend Nica
When we met in gym class, she rocked Diadora sneakers
We go back like that even before rap
Met little Duns together, riding bikes in hot weather
On the Ave. catching twin ass cracks
We used to mishaps, too many laughs that ended
Now I passed on cross, fences need to be mended
I wonder if today she feels the loss like I often do
Memories made more than a few
Still go a lot of places that I been with you
You moved away, heard you stayin' in Atlanta
I have to check you when I do a show, just to say
«Yo, been on my mind lately and I though you should know.»
To realize my dreams and right the wrongs I see
Things and what they seem
I wonder why through schemes
Cause I need to know
Since last contact a lot has happened
You been knew I was rapping
Done a little traveling
Performing and recording my craft
I’m breaking through at last
You know the math, how I pay dues with the dead-man crew
Carlos and me Vick and
Took mad flicks on 76th Ave.,
In Flushing, Queens cutting hair at Marie’s
Now he’s over seas at the military
Still this music shit is post primary
Just seen Anthony on the train
He doing his thang
We cool but his priorities changed
The rest of the same
Ain’t seen old what’s-his-name in eons
Yo how’s ya moms
Yo, mom’s is fine, my godmother Nancy died
(Rest in peace) two years ago in April
Damn, time flies, plus Matthew committed suicide
(rest in peace)
I can’t even cry but it still blows my mind
He left a lot of friends behind when he was alive
He asked about you from time to time, «Yo, how’s Nica?»
I replied, «Ain't seen her or heard from her.»
He thought it was a shame but I guess that’s just the way
It goes friends grow apart, why, I don’t know
People grow apart, why, I don’t know
Friends grow apart, why, I don’t know
Damn, I wish I knew
To realize my dreams and right the wrongs I see
Things and what they seem
I wonder why through schemes
Cause I need to know
Through life we feel joy and pain
Stick and move to gains
Silent footin' in these insane time
It’s a battle just maintaining a vibe
Motherfuckers leaving me mentally fried
But I can’t be denied. Look at me
I’m moving mountains with rhymes
Must be the grand design
I met the love of my life
He wasn’t Mister Right, but I’m still living, still building
Want a career and children, be set set with millions
And never let it go to my head
Someone wise once said
We only value what’s out of reach, or dead
Haven’t been close to mega long
I hope nothing is wrong
You been healthy and strong
I wrote this song when remembering when
Hoping maybe we can grieve again
If we ever meet again
Cause right now I could really use a friend from back then
To realize my dreams and right the wrongs I see
Things and what they seem
I wonder why through schemes
Cause I need to know
Tell me, I need to know
I wonder why, I need to know
Tell me, I wonder why
Tell me, I need to know
I wonder why