If Only

Here I sit in my cell
Plain white, stone cold walls
All alone with my thoughts, memories
And my regrets to keep me company
WISHING ONLY IF. .
Dreaming of holding my babies
Hearing their tiny voices and laughter
Watching them grow up
Dreaming I could see and touch
My Mom without the glass
IF ONLY. .
IF ONLY. .
I HAD REACHED OUT!
Dreaming of feeling wet grass on bare feet
The sun on my face, wind in my hair
Watching the stars
Feeling peace, hope, happiness, and belonging
IF ONLY. .. I' D REACHED OUT!
Reality, I' m alone on DEATH ROW
With no sense of hope, peace, or happiness
Day in, day out, I relive my failures, regrets
And that terrible night, knowing I’m
To blame for losing my babies
Realizing that what I dream of most
Could have been reality for me
Could have been reality for them
IF ONLY. .. I' D REACHED OUT!
Here I sit in my cell
Plain white, stone cold walls
All alone with my thoughts, memories
And my regrets to keep me company
WISHING ONLY IF. .
I 'D REACHED OUT!