Uncomfortably Numb

Sensitivity deprived
I can’t feel a thing inside
I blamed my father in my youth
Now as a father, I blame the booze
I have become uncomfortably numb
Whose ugly side is the ugliest?
Sensitivity deprived
All my sympathy prescribed
Whose hands are tied to a contortionist?
I used to struggle in my youth
Now I’m used to struggling for two
I have become uncomfortably numb
The lessons
The lessons
Are so much
Are so much
Less obvious
The further you get from home
The further I get from home
How will you exist
How will I exist
Without consequence?
I’ll let you know
We were gentle to begin
When I pushed you around to break you in
Now whenever I try to be clear with you
I only end up feeling see-through
I’ve tried, but you’ve won
Comatose, like father like son
The lessons
The lessons
Are so much
Are so much
Less obvious
The further you get from home
The further I get from home
How will you exist
How will I exist?
I don’t want to know
Blacked out, redacted
I just want you home
I’ll make new friends in the ambulance