Sinking Ships

I used to be a straight edged kid
with my head on tight
my life was so proper
but some where down the road
I took a turn
that made into a monster
it seemed like over night
i tossed out every rule I used to live by
I used to care about myself
but now it’s like fuck it, I do what I feel like
God forgive me
I’m not a saint
and I know that I’ve had my run
I had some friends who left my side
but lately I’ve been numb
I’d take the time to tell them what I feel
but I bite my tongue
'Cause I know they don’t mean a thing
to people who are done
I just need my great escape
I’m talking 'bout a quick clean getaway
I don’t even recognize myself anymore
I feel like I have lost my self control
I’m going down like a sinking ship
I’m sinking.
I used to be a care free guy
now I’m up every night
trying to solve my problems
3 o’clock in the morning
I’m awake, eyes wide, in my bed
and it feels like a coffin
My chest feels heavy. My grip is weak
and my mind is over crowded
If people ask me if I’m okay
I say, «I don’t want to talk about it.»
God forgive me
I know I need some help
but I can’t swallow my pride
I have these secrets
I choose to keep
that slowly eat me alive
My life has been so out of sync
but outside I look like I’m fine
but am I alright? «Yes». that was a lie
I just need my great escape
I’m talking 'bout a quick clean getaway
I don’t even recognize myself anymore
I feel like I have lost my self control
I’m sinking fast
I’m sinking fast so save me if you can