Hating Every Minute

Sit down and please make yourself comfortable
I might need some time
To dance around what I need to say
I love you to death, I think I need a break
I spend my days worried out loud
I gag in my head, I choke it back down
It hurts me inside to save you inside
So close my lips tight, move eyes to the side
This is the way we disappear
It’s easy if you burn out like a star
This is the way we disappear
It’s easy like a 50-foot fall
I’m waiting for whatever bit of time
To evict these words that, that have rented out my mind
I’m hating every minute that I don’t speak aloud
Like a year laying down, a year laying down
Relax on this bed of nails
On this plastic sheet, your blood leaves a trail
Right back to me, a problem you see
Would you please allow a moment to think?
This is the way we disappear
It’s easy if you burn out like a star
This is the way we disappear
It’s easy like a 50-foot fall
I’m waiting for whatever bit of time
To evict these words that, that have rented out my mind
I’m hating every minute that I don’t speak aloud
Like a year laying down, a year laying down