Havoc

Just when I thought I had handles on this
I could soften my guard behind false confidence
Just when I felt humbled by insipid
Except from this blind-side and from reading a script
Cause I am seduced by reaction and under the influence
I’m slipping again
I’m up to old tricks off my wagon
I have no defense
I’m wreaking havoc
Wreaking havoc and consequence
I get reduced by my own willfulness as I reach for my usual God-replacements
Cause I have reached for sanction it lacks in my steps
I’m slipping again
I’m up to old tricks off my wagon
I have no defense
I’m wreaking havoc
Wreaking havoc and consequence
If forgiveness is understanding than I’m
Affirming a compact for the millionth time
On this tumbling house of cards of mine
I am beaten by my impulsiveness
By this uncanny foreshadowing of regret
Cause I’m repulsed by restriction at least that’s my excuse
I’m slipping again
I’m up to old tricks off my wagon
I have no defense
I’m wreaking havoc
Wreaking havoc and consequence