Shoulda Said

Lying on the floor, staring at the walls
Thinking ‘bout that night, wondering where I went wrong
I’m reminiscing, it’s you I’m missing, and I’m wishing I could turn back the
time
So maybe I, maybe I could do it right
I shoulda fought, I shoulda stayed
I shoulda loved you better (but I was)
Put on the spot, and felt afraid
And now I’m wondering whether
Would it irk you, if I asked ya
Could you stay and we work it out together
Running in circles, full of dread, (thinking ‘bout)
All of the things I shoulda said
I could say that I just loved you, but that would be a lie
You compounded all my feelings down to a personalised paradise
A microscopic world of our own, just us two
Catch us splitting King and I, too much laughing to chew
It was your spirit that caught me, had the drive of a warrior
To win you back I’d single-handedly fight imperial forces
Yet, the distance was loud, life refused to stop passing
It was either flourish while apart or stay stuck in the past
I tried to hold it down like I was wearing concrete shoes
Drowning slowly with the knowledge that our time was due
The emptiness was hard, silence hit me like a brain burst
Every moment filled thinking of you like it was clockwork
But we promised to blossom, pick a path, demolish our problems until we find
the success we deserve
Love doesn’t disappear, it goes where it’s needed
You know how I feel, there’s no need to repeat it
Hope you’re good
This morning I woke up with a grateful heart
Felt the earth beneath my feet, and the warmth of the sun
Looking back on all the times that have felt so rough
Oh, I thank God for these lessons as I choose to move on
But sometimes a voice whispers
«I shoulda fought, I shoulda stayed»
But now I know better than to
Fall apart, and stray away
From something that matters
There are days where I wonder:
If we stayed, could we work it out together?
But I’m not hung up or feeling the dread
On all the things I shoulda said
I’m not hung up, no no
I’m not hung up, no no, on the things I shoulda said