Overthink

I know that I’m still young
New to this whole shit and I feel like a pilgrim
Made it out this far, but why do I feel dumb?
Every time I let myself down, it still sucks
I always felt like an alien
'Cause ain’t nobody understand the kind of pain I’m in
I know more life ain’t nowhere near my radius
Used to hate being Adrian, wanted an alias
I shoulda known a normal path was never meant for me
When I started making beats in elementary
It’s destiny, this life gonna end on me
So at the end of the day I’ma do what’s best for me
It’s meant to be, but then tell me why this is stressing me
Me and my team all know that we got the recipe
They say my time is on the way, I say, «It better be»
But while I’m waiting, I know I’ve become a better me
Thinking
Why I feel like I’m sinking?
All I need is a reason
Not to fall off the deep end
Stuck in my mind, thinking
Feel like I’m barely breathing
All I need is a reason
Not to fall off the deep end
This year I’ll finally be 21
I’m not excited as I expected to be 'cause I’m
Surviving daily to make it, I know I’m low on funds
I’d rather be in the studio when it’s said and done
'Cause rap is my only ticket out
From having nothing and stressing what’s up in my account
The bills are stacking, but I can’t fathom another route
I put my headphones on and tune the world out
It gets harder and harder holding onto my dreams
Some days I wake up and feel like I done tried everything
But I stand with it 'cause something in me won’t let me leave
Then it occurs to me this might be where I’m meant to be
I hope to live to make all my supporters proud of me
So we could stunt on like everybody who doubted me
I wanna give back to everybody who vouched for me
And thank my brothers for talking me off a balcony
Thinking
Why I feel like I’m sinking?
All I need is a reason
Not to fall off the deep end
Stuck in my mind, thinking
Feel like I’m barely breathing
All I need is a reason
Not to fall off the deep end